So I haven't seen Joe since Halloween night, I told him that night that I felt empty without him near me, he said it was creepy but sweet, the sweet part as it's loving however the creepy part because the other person needs to put something in that.
He enjoyed my costume The Painted Goddess but said she was a dire Goddess, and wanted to get to know the real me, and actually called me darling.
When I told him I was leaving he damn near teleported to me, and asked where was I going I reassured him I wasn't leaving town but getting away from everything and everyone I needed time to self reflect, and meditate.
So far I've meditating and it's been intense as well as my dreams being stronger and more realistic as ever, as well as my nightmares, apparently I've been having nightmares due to not seeing him, and recently last week for 4 days I couldn't eat a single bite I LACKED an appetite, and whenever I wanted to eat I spit out all the food that would be in my mouth.
I googled an answer and sadly I'm suffering from love-sickness.
I've never had this happen to me before.
This Thursday Dec 12th will be 6 weeks since I've talked or seen him.
Last weeks Thursday I went to the place he worked and made sure he wasn't there, and made sure he knew I came there as he wanted me to tell them to call him whenever I came back and he wasn't there.
He was there however the Wednesday before I went, so if he knows now that I was there it will might eat him alive I was there the DAY after he was there.
I will be going there on the 21st this month after 7 whole weeks of no communication with him.
So either he missed me while I was gone or not I'll find out.
I hope he misses me as much as I've missed him.
On the 20th Friday I'll be getting my hair done, it needs it terribly my hair hasn't been relaxed since before my birthday which was in August and this is now December, basically I just want my hair straightened so I'll post up a photo of my hair relaxed so it should look awesome!
Not to mention longer.
I want to get him a nice Christmas present but due to lowered funds that seem impossible for anyone to live on, I'm reduced to making him a homemade gift.
Thank God for my multi talented hands and brains!
So because his surname is Rose, (mmm) I will be making him roses out of cardboard, in a cardboard vase and a freebie card I was given.
Not much I hope he likes it though.
Being broke sucks especially when you work so hard and everyone makes fun of you for it.
Hope you all have a Merry Christmas.